Blogger's Block??

I really do want to engage in the discipline (and excitement) of blogging. For one thing, I'm absolutely convinced that I must have something worth sharing with you who read my words. For another, I have all the time in the world to record those thoughts. So why am I having so much difficulty writing??

It couldn't be that nothing is going on in my life. I mean how much more interesting could I want my life to be? Five hours at the dialysis clinic, three times a week, bonding with similarly renally-challenged characters seeking to rid their bodies of excess fluid and toxins that their under-performing kidneys can no longer jettison -- what's not to like? Getting to know a delightful crew of nurses, technicians, social workers, nutritionists, physician's assistants, nephrologists, specialists in venous access -- the list of supporting cast goes on and on -- and it is my pleasure to get to know and depend on each and every one of them. And this fifteen-hour-a-week commitment makes possible the other 153 hours between Saturday and the next Friday each week. It's a blessing beyond description!

And it's not that I don't have regular contact with friends and family. At least daily I hear from siblings, old classmates, former employers or fellow employees, friends, acquaintances, doctors' offices, pharmacists, fundraisers, political canvassers, grown children, and even my father. I'm more connected to people than I've been in years!

It's certainly not that my family isn't here for me. On the contrary, I've never felt more wanted, loved, supported and cared for than I have been these last two years. It's almost embarrassing to see how solicitous they all are for my wellbeing. It's truly humbling.

I don't know. Maybe I just spend so much time enjoying each and every day that I forget to put down in words the wonder and awe that I experience. I forget that you who care for me, who love me, who encourage and pray for me -- that you just might care to know how my life has been touched and transformed by your heartfelt and largely undeserved love and attention.

And I can hardly begin to tell you all about it. It's almost impossible to know where to start. But thank God I have the story to tell!